Sunday, April 15, 2012

Resting my thinker

I would love to give credit to the artist
 but I am not sure where I found this.

I have not been writing much. Sometimes I just don't have anything to say. Or maybe I do but I really don't have anything to share. It is okay to keep somethings to yourself and it is okay to keep to yourself too. I think sometimes I keep too much to myself and I don't make contact with my friends. Do they stop being my friends? I hope not. I hate that I am like this but I am. I always have been and I just don't seem to want to change that about myself. Some days I just think. I just think the whole day away and I am not even aware that I did it. At least I am not aware until the sun sets and I realize the day has changed into evening.

I do this when I paint too. However, it is different because I don't actually know what it was I was thinking about. Perhaps I wasn't thinking at all. Perhaps I was in the zone. Resting my thinker.

Thursday, April 5, 2012

It is not going to be a valley to you...

Life is filled with peaks and valleys. There is a lot of waiting for things to happen or waiting for things not to happen depending upon your point of view. I am 45 years old and I believe that my life is more than half over because I am certain I won't live to be 90. I am okay with that, in fact, I am more than okay with that. 

I am actually comfortable and excited about the next life. I finally figured out that there will be a next life. I believe it 100% and I also believe that we humans have no concept about what that truly means. I am cool with that too. I love surprises. 

I heard a woman who was pronounced dead and than came back to life say, "there are colors in the next life that don't exist in this life." That to me, that is really exciting. I can't wait to see those colors.