Wednesday, November 9, 2011

small changes

The past year has been filled with such small changes. Little artifacts have surfaced since my mother passed. I am not a collector, per se, except I do collect small wooden cats and beads. However, my grandmother was a collector and by default my mother. Needless to say, I have a small stash of Hummels and other Tchotchkes.

Little by little, I am sorting through some of this and trying to make decisions on what to keep and what to list on eBay. If anyone reading this has an opinion about what to do with left over things from family members that have passed, I would sure appreciate hearing from  you. It is emotional to say the least but since I have a finite  amount of space I have to be reasonable about what I hang on to.

As Christmas approaches I feel a sense of dread coming. I wish I could sleep the entire holiday away. I wish I could sleep the entire month of December away. It feels really big and burdensome this year. My mother would be 66 this year on the 20th of December. She died on the 18th of December, last year. I honestly feel like I want to crawl into a hole and cover myself over until spring. Maybe then I will bloom like a daffodil.

1 comment:

JessPoetics said...

I'm sorry.Though you lost your mother in the mortal world, she still lives. She lives in your heart, your soul, and watches over you, and your ever growing beautiful family. I know the grief and pain will always linger but love prevails even death cannot sever the connections of love. Be strong next month and embrace your Mothers love forever and fill up with the memories of that love. I am young and haven't suffered that hard of a lost but my heart goes to you.