Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Twisted Emotions

Photo provided by Tess Kincaid
Twisted emotions flow down my spine
Sometimes I am just fine, sometimes
I pray for numbness.

How old was I the last time you held my hand
Did I let you hold it or did my independent nature
Yank it back from you.

Will I survive not talking with you
And you not answering me back?
This mourning sucks and I see no way clear of it
At least not anytime soon.

I am clearing your room and I want to paint it
Make it pretty and put you right back in it.
Damn it
 All I can do is paint it but it will never be pretty
Without you in it.


18 comments:

Paul C said...

You depict the tumultuous feelings so well...sometimes numbness is the best alternative.

Helen said...

Twisted emotions, an aching loss leading to numbness ... a nice interpretation of Willow's photo.

Lyn said...

You portray the tentative parting, twists and turns of a break up, just perfectly...Painting over the past!

Tumblewords: said...

Your words mirror my thoughts that linger long after my mother's passing. Wishing you well.

signed...bkm said...

Reminds me of when my children moved out - so many mixed emotions and you just want them to be little again with the chance to start over...bkm

Reflections said...

Reminded me of the parting, the venturing to a world of their own for the child leaving the nest, the struggles of the parent to support, yet heartbroken... well done.

Berowne said...

"Twisted emotions" -- good description of the prompt.

annell said...

Well done! I like what you wrote.

annell said...

Well done! I like what you wrote.

ninotaziz said...

Hey Kristen,
First and foremost - congratulations! I just noticed you finished your Nanowrimo. Cheers!

Aahhh. Those emotions never let us move in one direction. That is the truth!

Myrna R. said...

Very nice. I know the pain of grief, and its anger.

Martin H. said...

You reflect the feeling of emptiness so well, here.

Tess Kincaid said...

The pain of loss and anger are so vividly portrayed here, Kristen. Blessings and peace, my friend.

kavisionz said...

Ack!! The pain brought on by loss is horrible I suppose! And you are so right... nothing can replace the love of someone.. only time can heal that bit...
A very beautifully written poem, my friend..

I hope this new year brings you loads of peace, love and joy!

Kristen Haskell said...

Thank you all for your kind words. It is true that I am hurting right now. Your supportive comments are so helpful. I wish you all a peace filled new year. Kristen

Vicki Lane said...

Nice response to the prompt!

Doctor FTSE said...

Surprising how many Magpies this week have associated the prompt sculpture with the loss of a loved one. This one is tersely expressed, sentiment without sentimentality.

Andreas said...

a fine poem on loss and separation.