Sunday, December 19, 2010

Saturday Morning 6:07 am

Saturday morning at 6:07 am my dear mother passed away from cardiac arrest. Her death was completely unexpected and Steve and I are in shock. My heart is broken and I can't possibly explain the levels of emotions that are running through my head and heart. My mother was a devout Catholic. She believed with no doubt that there is a heaven and she did everything she could to assure her spot.

Until this happened I would say that I would be lucky to have the faith of a mustard seed. Now with her gone, I am trying to find my faith again. This experience seems to be bringing me closer to faith. I want now more than ever to believe, I will see her again. I can't stop crying and in fact I don't want to stop crying. I want to cry until there are no more tears left in my body either that or just die and go and be with her but then I would miss my husband and brothers, all my other family members and friends.

Mary Margaret Beach Langley
December 20, 1944 - December 18, 2010
It is the love of my family and friends that is helping me through this. Tomorrow would be my mother's 66th birthday. I have a gift for her. She wanted me to wait and give it to her on her birthday. I wanted to give it to her early because it was a really warm pair of pajamas. It has been so cold lately and I wanted her to wear them. I could have gotten her another present to open on her birthday. She wouldn't let me give her the jams. She did not know what it was but she did not want one single gift early. A friend of hers sent her a Christmas present. I have not opened it yet. I am going to wait until Christmas. Whatever it is I plan to put it with the urn I purchased for her today.

I loved her, her name is Mary and she had a big heart.

9 comments:

Tess Kincaid said...

Kristen, my heart goes out to you and your family. My thoughts and prayers are with you tonight. Peace, dear friend. xx

Tumblewords: said...

Oh, Kristen, I am so sorry, so very sorry. My thoughts are with you and yours.

Jingle Poetry said...

prayers..
blessings..
stay strong..
everything will be fine.

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cloakedmonk said...

Prayers for you and your loved ones as you travel through this transitional time.

Myrna R. said...

Oh Kristen, what can I say? My prayers are with you, my heart is with you. Wish I could give you a hug.

Take care of yourself.

Rae said...

there are no word that can make you feel better, but know that you are in my thoughts and that she is still with you through your memories.

senderupwords said...

Kristin, my heartfelt condolences, loosing a loved one, let alone a parent is extremely painful. Please know that my thoughts are with you at this time.

If you need a shoulder, you know where to find me.

Love and Light,

Sender

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