Tuesday, September 21, 2010

Unexpurgated Words

Against me your transgressions
Grow daily
There are history books full of them
Books I have only just discovered.

You’ve taken my heart
You know, the one that loved you,
Cared for you,
Stood by you,
When others abandoned.

You gave your body,
Your false representative,
Without a single thought of me.

Your cunning deceit
Kept these others from being
Known to me.
Why didn’t you spare me?
Instead you lie
Nescient you kept my life hostage
For eight long years.

After I left you
They came out of the woodwork
Your lies
A plague, each new discovery

Unexpurgated words yet
Wishing I was lady enough not say them
“You suck mother fucker!”
But cathartically saying it anyway.


Vicki Lane said...

Whew! I'll bet that felt better!

Kristen Haskell said...

Really that happened so long ago that I really have no feelings around it anymore. However, I see other women going through this same thing. I really dedicate this to them.

JeffScape said...

Say 'em loud!

No, your email unblock didn't work. You need to go into "edit profile" and click the "show email" box.

Kristen Haskell said...

Thanks for your help JeffScape! I followed your directions and I think it should work now.